Journey to Self

Nicole Calello

Ever since I was little I felt a spiritual pressure, a deep knowing I was here to help others and an overwhelming urge to here to create something. My journey has been one of unlearning who I am NOT and remembering who I truly am and why I came here.

My Sun is in Sagittarius and my Moon and Rising are both in Cancer. I am all fire and water infused with an Aquarian flare and a strong Virgo essence. One side of me is energetic, playful and adventurous (4 planets in FIRE). Another side is quiet, gentle and deep (5 planets in WATER). I am a funky freedom seeker who has to do everything her own way ( Sun conjunct Uranus) and highly organized, always on time and detail oriented (5 planets in 6th house).

My energy is that of quiet strength. Soft, feminine and flowy energy mixed with fierce fire, passion and movement. A bold risk taker and lover at heart. I love to go deep into the unconscious anchored in body and soul and play in the expansive magical realm of the stars and moon. Laughter is my medicine.

At some point along the way, I suppressed my true nature and attempted to conform to familial, societal and cultural norms through people pleasing and perfectionism. I unconsciously learned to give my power away to everything outside of myself from a very young age and therefore, lost my sense of self, disconnecting from my intuition and the very things that made me, ME.

I know what it’s like…

to hold yourself back, making yourself small and palatable.

to swallow your truth, unable to speak out of fear and anxiety.

to live with a closed aching heart, feeling broken, separate and alone.

to not trust yourself, feeling STUCK in unconscious patterns and cycles.

to be overwhelmed with feeling EVERYTHING while at the same time feeling NOTHING.

to realize just how much needs to change, having no idea where or how to start.

Your life begins to shift radically from the inside out

when you find the COURAGE to look yourself in the eye 

and take responsibility for YOURSELF and YOUR LIFE.

I know what it’s like to go

from being lost, disconnected, disempowered, living in fear and lack 

to confident, connected, empowered, living in love and abundance.

I know what it’s like…

to sit with and accept uncomfortable truths about yourself.

to dismantle everything you thought you were and grieve the life you thought you would have.

to walk through what you thought might KILL you and SURVIVE.

to uproot the only life you’ve known, leave your comfort zone and disrupt the order.

to finally choose yourself and walk the unknown path with your intuition as the guiding light.

to live life rooted in your power and feeling deeply aligned in path and purpose.

Strength is found

in the silence

of your surrender.

Before my spiritual awakening, I lived my life for the approval of others, suppressed my true self and had a core belief there was something wrong with me. My world was unconsciously run by a roller coaster of angry outburst and dark emotional holes of depression. I lived unconsciously in fear and anxiety attempting to perfect the appearance of myself and my life. I was addicted to overdoing things, had no sense of self, was codependent and needed external validation on any little thing while at the same time needed to be control and couldn’t let my guard down or anyone in. 

My first spiritual awakening was in 2018 at the Wanderlust Festival on the North Shore of Oahu, Hawaii. During an angry emotional outburst in the middle of a public event, there was a moment where consciousness flooded my body and I suddenly became aware of myself for the first time. From that point on, I could no longer unconsciously ignore or suppress the inner turmoil I tried to numb and avoid daily. Through grit teeth, I began to acknowledge and observe my internal dialog, automatic reactions and behaviors.

The following year, during my Yoga Teacher Training, desires I didn’t quite understand or know how to communicate to travel, move and be alone began. A spark within me was ignited and a knowing and remembering began to unfold. I didn’t know it at the time but everything in my life as I knew it was about to change- my job, my relationships, my home. My healing journey began when I found my courage and posed the question-

What if you stop resisting your soul’s desires and jump into the unknown completely?

From this point on, my life began to take on an entirely new form inside and out. Instead of choosing my path based on what others wanted for me or what I thought I “should” do,  

With every step I took into the unknown, I began to trust myself and my own path and simultaneously began to feel the support of my spiritual guidance.

I began to FEEL it

to KNOW it from within

You can not find the path 

until you realize, YOU ARE THE PATH. 

THE PATH UNFOLDS FROM WITHIN.

It was during my second spiritual awakening in 2022, when I arrived on the island of Ometepe in Nicaragua, when I was opened up to the world of energy and the spirit realm. Following my inner guidance, I backpacked throughout Latin America for 8 months, trusting and deepening into myself through a variety of healing modalities from vipassana and breath work to past life regressions and plant medicine ceremonies. With every shadow I chose to face and feel, I created deeper understanding within myself and found beauty, meaning and purpose in divine orchestration.

There has always been a natural ambitious energy within me pushing me to expand and create beyond myself. My commitment to the path of healing and transformation has been present since before I was even aware of it. I could sense that behind the illusion of separation, beneath the belief that I didn’t belong, in the swallow of intense emotion and woven within the depth of perception was the exact story line I chose to remember through.  

The world needs YOU 

to be the real YOU. 

The consciousness within each of us is rising.

Planet Earth is in the midst of awakening. 

Can you FEEL it?

That patient subtle voice that comes from within.

The internal compass that does not rest. 

That desire that keeps on resurfacing. 

The synchronicities you can’t pass off as coincidences any more.

The symbolism of your dreams that feel too real. 

The knowing without knowing how you know.

THE CHANGE YOUR SOUL IS BEGGING FOR.

Your soul is nudging you

in the direction it knows to go. 

You are exactly where you are meant to be. 

You are not behind, you are right on time. 

Ready to say YES to your yourself and surrender to the unknown?

Healing begins when you find your strength to commit to yourself no matter what. It must come with a willingness to feel, to be vulnerable, to cry, to have humility and to forgive. It must come with surrender, belief and trust in something greater than you. The journey to self and soul is where you harness your strength and trust in yourself and the unknown path ahead. Its where you reconnect with your heart and remember who you are, why you came here and that you are exactly where you are meant to be.

It’s where you remember you are here to be BRAVE.

Schedule a Connection Call to begin your journey

Areas of Experience:

Emotional Regulation

Inner Child

Trauma Adaptations

Attachment Theory

Conscious Relationship

Ancestral Healing

Past Lives

Transmutation & Alchemy

Soul Revival

Areas of Study:

2019 - Yoga and Meditation Teacher Training RYT 200 with Maitri Yoga

2020-Ongoing - Astrology studies with Debra Silverman and Malika Semper

2022 & 2024 - Reiki Levels 1-3 with Julie Isis Spirit and Rooted Feminine Wellness

Your path is not

for the faint of heart.